Is this thing still on? 

This is a roughly drafted 10-minute poem thing I wrote last week sometime.
It's about stepping fully out of duality. 

I call it, Into And and Out of Or, mostly because I like the way that sounds. 


  I am good & I am bad.
I am happy and I'm sad.
I am hot & I am cold.
i am young and oh so old.

I am you & you are me.
I'm imprisoned and I'm free.
I am fat & I am fit.
I persevere, and then I quit.

Everything & all that is
Is what I am & who I is.
Collectively & separate too
Is who we are & what we do.

I am war & I am peace.
I'm a crook and I'm police.
I am love & I am fear.
I'm so far and oh so near.

I hang on & I let go.
I'm a prude and I'm a ho.
I am bitchy & I'm sweet.
I am fractured, and complete.

Everything & all that is
Is who we are & what we is
Collectively & separate too
Is who I am & what I do.

Unconditional Love. 
 
That's what I've always known from my father. 
That's what I thought was commonplace.  Until I got older & saw otherwise.
That's what I see & feel right this moment as I sit and watch him sleep.

He miraculously sent the acute leukemia into remission though the doctors had him buried last November.  But now the so-called skin cancer on his nose which he was told repeatedly "will be ugly but it will never kill you" has spread throughout the interior of his face & now throat.  At this moment he can barely swallow. 

But his will is unflappable, his attitude positive & his spirit remains unbroken. 

Though back to the unconditional love...    as if we ever left... 

Dad always treated us (my sister & I) with respect... as worthy equals.  My sister & I rode along most every Saturday afternoon when he'd go to set up the music equipment (a band... "The Country Sweet Things") & we would help unload the truck.  People in the bars would comment & say, "they might drop that mic.. Or guitar.. Or whatever we might have." & he'd laugh & say, "there's just as good a chance that I might drop it."   

Dad bought us ponies, then horses & taught us how to saddle up & ride.  We would fill his empty beer bottles with kool aid, pack lunches, & ride off to the creek for the entire day. 
Then he bought us minibikes & even taught us how to build jumps....

Can you hear with your heart?
See with your toes?
Breathe with your fingers
And feel with your nose?

I don't know why
These questions arise
As I gaze through the pane
Into hummingbird's eyes.

Aww.

Sometimes it seems much that we carry through life
And I wonder how much one can bear
So we strip, we discard and we lighten the load
And see more... so we tear at our hair

Ugh.

Forget to recall, remember what when?
A game in which most are ingrained
So stop, deafen, unthink! and clap for a breath
Before being thoroughly drained.

Can you?



 

Yep.   

nothing.

Seriously though...



I still got nothing.

Stop it! 

Seriously.     

I came into this world loving everyone & everything & discovered that it simply pissed a lot of people off. 

That didn't really change how I felt about them, but it sure did make me come to believe that there was something seriously wrong with me.     So I learned to hide.    Learned how to squelch my light through various substances & silences & dern near put my light completely out in the process. 

I think many of us have done that.     Because this place was just so freakin heavy & the hurt was just too much to bear.

But once we've been around the block a couple hundred dozen times or more we hopefully wake up & realize that there was nothing wrong with us in the first place.  There can't possibly be any 'wrong'.  We were just a bit ahead of our time. 

So anyway... if any answer other than 'nobody' popped into your head when you read the initial question then it may be time to let it go.. get over it... and reclaim yourself with the knowing that we truly cannot FULLY love another until we FULLY love our SELF!

Yee Haw!



I Love YOU as you are ME!

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And with that...I am headed outside to plant a yellow echinacea (who knew?) afore the rains come in.
We gots a cold front moving in.     High of just 77 tomorrow.     


Oh & doog boj on jumping the tourists, sig.     

I mean...

 



This time is truly feels like positive change is in the air. 
It's hard to tell that to peoples who are dealing with so much pain & fear right now,
or peoples (like me!) who are in the midst of so many fear-filled others who are clinging to the old.
And it's hard to prove anything that has to be known by each on the inside.

That said, I am not saying the pandemic is ending any time soon or that the divisiveness or clinging to right/wrong is going away.   Yet. 

Just saying there is a wave of excitement & ease & love & prosperity & health & goodness & community & more that is easier than ever to ride for those of us who've never before surfed. 

Happy Solstice & beyond....

Really?

The best thing about 2020 (other than Jacki's zoom classes) is that time is surely flying by.
Or surly flying by? 

Regardless (what a strange drow), the energies are still way way way up.   Magnifying everything. 


And sig...yes, Jacki loves curry.  And she loves gari (you told me how to make my own, amember? ).  And she loves salads, with balsamic or rice vinegar.   

And what about miso paste?   It is fermented, right?  Does it offer the same benefit as the sour fermentations?   How about a cup of miso soup before meals...like Japanese nuclear workers ?


Anyway...Happy belated     And happy to our sometimes Aussies.   (Not sometimes Austealian just sometimes here.  )

Boy oh boy oh boy...

A New Kind of Strength - Gifts of Crisis


September will start on a high-energy note with a Pisces Full Moon, setting up a month of elevated-intensity happenstance and many new things coming to light. Seat-belts are suggested, not only for witnessing the craziness of the world but for personally navigating the highs and lows. Continue reading for a big picture of what's ahead and suggested advance preparations.

Background

As we know, planetary energies in 2020 tend to be amplified and some of the conjunctions are game changers of historical proportions - the likes of which haven't been seen on Earth for hundreds of years. These line-ups point to a mega shift in awakening and a combination of tearing down unworkable systems and building new infrastructures from the ground up. This is beyond messy, and the sheer magnitude of so much transforming so fast can be unnerving.

Pisces Full Moon

The Pisces Full Moon of September 1-2 will put a spotlight on trust and values. Both of those themes are now center stage globally as citizens in our divided society evaluate incoming information. We're witnessing a "war on truth" in which facts are either disputed, ignored, or distorted.

The "us vs them" dynamic has intensified, too, spilling over into business and even families. Decision-making and real solutions to our world's dilemmas have become compromised. A growing number of problems - ...

This is the same message I've been getting for awhile now.   




 

   
Please Practice Peace...


Hi Dear Friends,

Today the angels ask us to "be the peace" in the world. They share a simple exercise that, if practiced often, will help you go there easily. I'll share some thoughts, links to others' channeling, and insights into the energies coming up the next few months. It is going to be a wild ride soon. We're going to be OK. It is our peace that ensures this.

Love you all,
♥ Ann

Message from the Angels

My dear friends, we love you so very much,

Breathe deeply. Think of a situation – either real or imagined – in which you feel deep peace. It can be a place you have visited, a place you have seen in a movie, or one you imagined in your wildest dreams. It may be a memory of being in your lover’s arms, or the first time you held your newborn child. It could be a moment of snuggling with your dog or petting your purring cat. It may be a time you watched the sunrise, listened to the birds, walked in the forest, or sat upon the sea shore. Shut your eyes for a moment and see what comes to mind.

Now, shut your eyes once again and imagine being in this place of peace. Breathe deeply. Relax. Feel it. Breathe. Relax. Feel. Take some time to bask in the deep peaceful feeling, as if you are really in this place or moment in time. there. See if you...